tabiat yang sukar dibuang atau mungkin mustahil

one more week to go and i shall struggle more for my assignments!! hahaha last week was a real tough and hectic week for me.. assignment mcm haram nk kene hantar everyday.. damn! ahaha setelah seminggu xcukup tido, akhirnya hari jumaat n sabtu n ahad dihabiskan dgn tido shj.. lol *ni la gara2 xnk buat assignment awal.. so padan muka sndri! ;p* but someway, somehow, i manage to finish everything up.. hooray and give a big clap for me.. lol

so my presentation for event last week went very well.. everything was great.. *byk sgt dugaan utk presentation ni* firstly, laptop wawa yg da siap sume assignment event, kene virus n xbole on langsung.. thank god my parts ada kat email wawa dat day.. kesian moon sbb kene re-do cz laptop dia rosak n dia pinjam org punyer.. so on last monday, me, wawa, moon n nas duduk kat library from 11am until maghrib n pegi class comm research dgn keadaan yg sgt selekeh utk hantar assignment. ptg tu, i have to edit my comm research group assignment utk hantar.. but then mlm tu, kene reject lg.. urghhh!

so the next day, my group was the last group yg kene present event.. our group punyer presentation went well, xbyk kene comment.. but yg mana kene comment, ktorg byk idea yg cover the mistakes on the spot.. *kate masscomm, kene la pandai manipulate!*

then ari jumaat ada presentation etr plak.. haha satu mlm xtido.. me, shiera berkampung kat bilik yuyu.. shiera kul 3 da tido.. yuyu da tersengguk2 kat dpn laptop sbb laptop dia yg biol tu bwat hal plak.. haha but i mampu bertahan sampai ke pagi.. so around 6.30, i kejut shiera n yuyu then i blk bilik sbb nk mandi.. tp siap sume kat bilik yuyu.. sbb sambil siap tu, ktorg goreng fries utk presentation.. smpi class, iman present dlu.. then baru our group.. tp malangnyer sir puasa pulak.. so mknn tu another lecturer mkn n budak2 class.. hehe masa time q n a for presentation tu, ada gak kene hentam sikit2 dgn both lecturer.. but then, kami berjaya menjawab secara spontan n bwat muka confident sbb xnk nmpk sgt yg ktorg nie menipu n xprepare.. after habis present tu, sir ckp well, ur group has been well prepared.. hahhaha ktorg one group just say thanx and senyum je.. lepas tu, trus gelak, sbb sir xtau yg ktorg baru start buat the day before.. lol

so moral of the story, buat la assignment awal2.. jgn bwat last minute.. sbb nnt kelam kabut, tension, stress n xckup tido.. amaran keras : JANGAN CONTOHI SAYA!

haha

research comm!

dari pukul 9 sampai 6.15 pagi, aku menghadap laptop n buku psycho sbb nk siapkan ass research comm.. naik biol otak membaca.. pastu internet lak cm haram.. satu literature review pun jenuh nk mencari.. da la minum 2 paket kopi o smlm.. mmg xngntuk langsung ar..

pastu td masa kul 3, dorg sume baru kluar dari smoke ez n nk gerak ke alsalam.. pergh sakitnyer hati.. da la time tu, perut shaz n yuyu da nyanyi lagu xaxau.. smpi ktorg bole dgr bunyi perut masing2.. hahah so dgn segeralah ktorg menghantar msg kat abg epul " abg, shaz nk limau ais, nasi goreng kg n ayam goreng. yuyu nk barli limau ais, maggi goreng melayu xnk sayur n telur mata.. cpt!!!!!". dengan segeralah abg epul cal n gelakkan ktorg.. ktorg yg da biol ni bole mintak dorg anta o fed ex kan mknn tu.. memg buang tebiat kan?? tp lapar kot.. sbb da biasa mkn dgn dorg time2 cmni.. huhu

masuk kul 6, ktorg pun surrender nk bwat ass tu.. sbb da xlarat.. mata sbnrnyer xngntuk.. tp otak da sgt BIOL + TEPU.. so terpaksa la stop buat.. hhaha bukan otak je yg mcm tu.. laptop si yuyu pun da biol.. ada ke patut, dia punyer ayat spatutnyer mcm nie :-

yuyu da giler n biol n rasa cm nk mati.. tinggal 3jumaat lg tp xreti nk insaf.. haha

tp jadi mcm nie:

yuyu da giler n biol n rasa cm nk mati.. tinggal 3jumaat lg tp xreti nk insaf.. h

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bengong x??

ok back to the story.. tdo pun xlama pg td.. kul 11.30 da bgn.. sbb byk sgt gangguan msg n call pagi2 buta nie.. tp badan jgn ckp ar.. lesu nk mampus.. hahaha so td after bgn, trus balik bilik, mandi n siap.. pastu g umah umi nk beli nasi.. da naik bilik yuyu, dia mintak g belikan mknn utk dia lak.. so turun blk.. lepas mkn tu, dok menghadap laptop je la..

on9 n update blog masing.. b4 dat, aku usha jap la blog si mak usu bengong nie.. pergh gile dowh!

KEKENYANGAN + XCUKUP TIDO + BACA BLOG MAK USU = KETAWA SAMPAI SAKIT PERUT N PIPI

pastu bole ke dia tanyer aku ni nk mati da ke.. chis cake punyer mak usu..hahah

p/s : moral of the story is jgn buat keje last minute!! :)

no subject, just a say..

at last... new update.. hahaha sometimes i think my life has turn upside down.. too many things is happening around me.. sometimes i just wish i can run away from everything.. but now i realize that i couldnt run away from it.. all i can do is solve the puzzle and stood up straight and face everything on my own way..

at this moment.. i wish i could turn back time and be the old me.. but its a little too late.. so i need to go on with my life.. im sorry to those that i've hurt.. i dont have the intention to hurt u guys because it happens accidentally..

i just cant wait for tomorrow because thank god its friday! hahah its party time!! i gotta a feeling that tonights gonna be a goodnight.. lalala~

faith in me!

Mmmmh
Whoaaa

They can say,
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try
Hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's,
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
From me

No no nooo

Oh they,
They can do
Anything they want to you,
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win,
If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,
See I..
I have learned,
There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that they can not possess
So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's,
There's a light in me
That shines brightly, They can try,
But they can't take that away from me

No oh oh,
They can't take this
Precious love I'll always have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

Woah, woah
They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Oh, Lord, they do try,
Hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe or lose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly

They can try but they can't take that away from
Me
From me
No no nooo
Me

This song always makes me feel stronger to deal with circumstances in my life.. it helps me to rebuild my faith in myself and others..

On the night like this
There’s so many things I want to tell you
On the night like this
There’s so many things I want to show you

Cause when you’re around
I feel safe and warm
When you’re around
I can fall in love every day

In the case like this
There are a thousand good reasons
I want you to stay…

im soo lazy to update..

i wanna write something but i just cant think of what to write.. hahaha well, yesterday i hang out with addin, jiji n sha.. so we went to watch night at the museum 2.. trust me, the movie was great! i really love that movie.. its even better than the first one.. u guys better not miss the movie because u will regret.. hahahaha

owh and after the movie, we went to wendy's cz our stomach is playing a rock song! hahaha well, me and sha ordered a baked potato with sour cream n chives.. mine taste great but unfortunately, sha's baked potato taste like "tanah".. thats what we said once we taste her baked potato.. hahaha poor sha.. lol

so after that we went back home.. so as soon as i got home, mama asked me, mana sha n her frens.. i was like, dorg xnk dtg.. hahaha so, i have to cal them n make sure, they come to the bbq at tok mi's house.. hahaha n they came.. altho by the time i call them, addin is alrd at home n jiji is alrd in ampang to sent sha back home.. so they arrived around 8.45..

we chat n eat until 11.. n its time for them to go back cz addin has to go to work today.. jiji has to sent sha to ampang n then go back to rawang.. hahaha

well, i had lots of fun yesterday.. altho it was my first time hanging out with addin n jiji.. but trust me, i feels like i've been frens with them like 10 years.. hahaha

thanx girls!

hanging out with the girls have been the best thing in my life.. so the day started when i have to wake up at 7.30 am and sent my brother to work.. odw there, i text sha n billa "gudmorning girls! rise and shine!" unfortunately, billa reply with "Zzzzz". so, as soon as i reach home, i go to bed again.. hahaha n then around 10, sha n billa call n text me.. but i silent the phone.. so, sorry girls! n this Zzzzz Billa, buzz me at ym.. with the woman screaming.. i was like, darn.. i hate u biatch!! (the truth is i love u) hahaha so then we chat n i get ready.. well, ive packed everything.. so, as soon as im ready, i drove to Shah alam..

when i reached billa's room, i ask her to pluck my eyebrows.. n i did hers too.. fyi, we always do this whenever we meet.. huhuh so around 1, we went for lunch and came back home.. n i had to sew my mum's belt because the belt longgar. haha after that, we went to pick faris(billa's bro) from school.. as soon as we get home, billa took her stuff and we start our journey to Bukit Jalil.. cz we need to pick up Sha, Alya and Tyha.. n then, we went back to sha's house in LM.

so, when we reached LM, sha told Johan that we wanna borrow his car because we wanna go to Jusco and Danie is coming with us.. at first, he dont wanna give the car keys.. but later, he was like ok.. so sha said she wanna drive.. we all, was wearing the seatbelt because we are not sure about sha's driving.. plus i know what she have done last time.. haha

so, we reach Jusco safely.. haha then, we had our lunch + hi tea at oldtown and after that we went for some shopping..

we go to the room and get ready.. trying our outfit.. ahahah so, billa n sha borrow my outfit for that night.. then, we started to get ready.. haha so, we realise that we are all ready by 10.. so billa called pitt asking what time will he be at MOS.. n then he said that bob is in Putrajaya.. so, they will be a lil bit late..hahaha

so we reach the club around 11 and there was no one yet at the dance floor.. so we went to the dance floor and start dancing.. so then, there is this one guy who looks like pitt approach us.. billa was soo happy and she started to hug that guy.. i went close to him because i wanna take a closer look. n im wondering if pitt's here, then where is bob?? ahhaha but then i realise it wasnt pitt.. all of us started to laugh like mad! then the guy went away after billa told him that she thought he was pitt.. hahaha

so we dance non-stop bcause we dont have any table.. lol and around 11.45 pitt told billa that they are odw but they wanna eat first.. another disappoinment for billa.. hahaha then after a while, the songs become sux and we went out to get some air.. so, we hang out and then billa have to pick up a call from her dad.. so, she and tyha went to the ladies in Sunway Hotel just to pick up the calls.. while me, sha and alia is camwhoring.. then, there is this one guy came to us asking for lighter. so i gave him.. then they starting to take pics of us using their camera.. fuck! damn u typical malays.. haha

then, billa said that she has to come in using the main entrance again.. so, we have to meet inside .. we went back inside.. n billa said pitt is alrd in here.. few minutes later, we meet him.. she hug him and this time, its the real Pitt.. owh yea, bob was there too.. i was looking for a guy with long hair but billa told me that he has cut his hair.. so we greet each other and we have nothing much to say cz the music is so loud! haha then, we went to the dance floor.. i tot i want to dance with sha, tyha n alia.. but they alrd has partner.. they always have partner since the beginning.. i dont really have cz i dont like to dance with strangers.. hahaha but bob is different case.. lol pitt push him to me and billa told me to dance with him..  haaha

then, they said they wanna drink.. so i shared with bob cz pitt wanna share with billa.. hahaha LOL then we went out, n haha.. the typical malay boys were still there and they were looking at me n billa cz he we have accompany.. huhu so we hang out for a while and around 2.00, we all decided to leave..

then, we went to Darus to hang out.. so we chat.. and chat.. and pitt bully me as usual.. at one point, i feel sooooo ashame and i feels like im blushing.. hahaha then, they started to talk about ghost stories n i decided to ignore them.. so i talk with bob.. it was suprising because both of us ended up talking about ghost stories.. so, around 3+, we decided to go back because bob have class at 8 and pitt have a quiz.. huhu

so, before we went back home, all of the girls stop at sunway hotel because tyha wanna meet her scandal and clubbing buddy.. and we reach home around 4.30.. so, we take off our make up and decided to sleep.. unfortunately, we chat on the bed till 5.45.. hahaha

video shoot!

The past two days was the best day ever in this whole semester.. few days back, a stranger text me.. his name is faiz and he is fazry's fren.. he asked me if i can be their actress for the P.S.A film entitle "Study". i was like, owh ok.. cz fazry help me during my publication presentation.. so its time to help him back..

so, on saturday, i woke up early because they said that they will be going after they finished their MUET test.. then, they text me around 12 and said that we will be going at 2.30 pm. i was like owh cool! at least i have enough time to get ready.. i was feeling soo freaking nervous.. so, i decided to go to Bash's room (Fazry's gf which is my levelmate). i asked her if there is any other girl.. so she said i guess Kak Mai will be there. i was like cool! at least im not the only girl..

2.30 sharp, fazry called me to come down because Faiz is waiting for me.. as soon as i get inside the car. he said that we are going to Blok G back, because some of them are getting ready. the only thing that i can say is OK. haha then, i realize that i'm the only girl that will be surrounded by 5 guys.. ok i repeat FIVE GUYS! im kind of like a PIMP. haha

so, our first stop is Petronas.. two cars with 3 people in each car.. then, we go to the Jetty to start our shooting.. the only person that i talked to were Fazry and Faiz.. then, they said i have to do a dating scene with paan. haha i was so nervous cz i barely know this guy! but somehow, i manage to get used to it.. haha
so after the scene at Jetty, we went to a place near Eye On Malaysia. When we first arrived, me and paan has to stay in the car while our production crew discussed about the scene.. then we went to a tree, and it was the only tree in the middle of field.. im not sure how to describe the place but its like a field.. hahaa so we sat under the tree and the shooting begins.. once again, we have to hold hands.. but this time, it is something different.. his hand and my hand has to “walk” using our finger in order to “meet” each other’s hand.. haha here is the picture.. haha

later, we have to play around the bushes.. sort of like a Hindustan.. haha there is this one part whereby we have to hold both hands and swing in a circle.. (am I using the right term?)ok whatever, so it makes me feel a little bit drowsy and for this part, we have to took around 4 shot, if im not mistaken.. LOL
moving on to the next scene.. we went to MP to shoot in the karaoke room.. however, this shot has not been used in the movie.. well, we had fun karaoke for one hour.. gosh I just love hanging out with them.. they are fun to be with!

As for dinner, we went to Burger King.. weeeeeeeee~~!! Well, obviously we have the eating scene to be done first.. so we went to see the manager (unfortunately, the manager doesn’t want to see us.. so the service crew become our middle person because the manager is in the staff room).. somehow, by using the communication skills that I learn, me and faiz manage to persuade the manager.. hehe so the production crew bought 2 sets of meal for me and paan.. but for that scene, we only used one set.. SHARING IS CARING! Ahaha so after few shots, the production crew went to buy their own meal and we ate together.. this is when they start to talk about ghost stories.. darn! I hate this part right here.. haha so, after we finished everything, we went to car to go back to uitm..

We stop at TESCO because they need to buy some stuff for different scene.. then, we arrived in Uitm safely.. hahaha I was supposed to go to bed early because I have to meet them at 9 am tomorrow.. but my eyes was so stubborn that I end up reading my notes until I fall asleep..

-the end for day 1-

-beginning of day 2-

So I woke up early today and by 9, I was already waiting for them in front of my block.. owh did I told u that im wearing the exact same attire as yesterday?? Haha no worries, I did wash my shirt last night before I went to bed.. huhu so the boys called me at 9, asking if im ready.. so I said im already in front of my block.. ive waited for a while and finally they arrived at 9.15.. n the first reaction that I get as soon as I enter the car was “eeee baju smlm!” n I see paan who is driving wearing different shirt than yesterday.. so he told me that the shirt is inside his bag. Darn! I would have done the same thing if I knew it.. well, its ok.. its all about being confident.. haha then, we went to MSL to have our breakfast.. then only I know that fazry and mahat is going by motorcycle..

Next destination is ayer keroh.. we went to their friends house because they need to shoot paan’s scene in the bedroom.. huhu thank god there is a girl in the house.. during the shoot, I enjoy myself watching tv in the living room.. so the girl that live in the house has to act as paan’s mum.. however, once again, after they edited the movie, they decided to cut this scene..

Then, we went to MP again.. on our way there, i have to be quiet inside the car cz im the one who challenge myself to do soo.. hahaha gosh I feel so shy and awkward walking around MP wearing the same shirt.. so I’ve told them to avoid places like burger king.. haha we went to the food court to have our lunch.. but while waiting for mahat n fazry; faiz, paan n fathul BULLIED me! They tease me coz im wearing the same shirt.. so I decided to act as if I was hurt by it n walk away from that place.. they called me and I played around with them… haha serves them right! Actually I went to the Guardian to buy Rexona.. haha then, I get back to the food court n paan was eating happily.. haha while fathul n faiz was looking around for me.. LOL

So, after I have finished eating, we went back to the car.. this scene is the most adventurous scene for me.. first we have to walk away while holding hands from the camera to the car.. during this shot, there was 2 times whereby the guard was around.. so we cover up by taking pictures.. as if we are tourist.. and fazry have to run to hide the camera.. then, we have to take the scene in the ar.. I have to be the sort of naughty girl.. we have to do the kissing scene.. haha no worries.. we did not kissed.. haha it took 5 shot I guess, to get the best shot..

Last but not least, b4 we went back, we have to take the car moving scene at kelemak.. this is the funniest part.. we were waiting for fazry n mahat.. so I told paan to wait at the side of the road.. since there is a left turn, I told him to DRIFT.. so he did the DRIFT xjadi.. because what do u expect with a kancil.. I don’t want anything bad to happen.. after the drift, we stopped.. then, there is this police car stopped beside our car.. there is a guy n a lady.. so they asked what happen.. I guess they were curious because there is only 1 gurl with 3 guys.. we told them that we are waiting for our fren.. n lucky us because that time faiz was holding his camera.. hahaa so they told us no too wait there for soo long.. haha after fazry and mahat has arrived, we start our shooting.. after we finished this scene, we went to Kelemak.. they asked me if I want to eat.. but Im not hungry at all.. so we just have a drink.. then go back to uitm..

It was in the evening when we arrived back in uitm.. I went to bed because I was too tired.. at night, I woke up to eat and went back to bed.. hehee

i love u!

Just to prove I was right that it's harder to be friends than lovers and you shouldn't try and mix the two, cause if you do and then you're still unhappy, then you know that the problem is you."

If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend.

You were the one who made things different; you were the one who took me in. You were the one thing I could count on; above all, you were my friend.

Even if we never talk again after tonight, please remember that I am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me.

I was just wondering if you'd come along to hold up my head when my head won't hold on. I'll do the same if the same is what you want, if not I will go alone.

See you and me have a better time than most can dream of, better than the best, so we can pull on through, whatever tears at us, whatever holds us down, and if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of what's around.

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm...I turn to you. For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on...for everything you do, for everything thats true, I turn to you.

When I'm lost in the rain, In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way And when I'm scared, losing ground When my world is going crazy You can turn it all around and when I'm down you're there Pushing me to the top You're always there, giving me all you've got

Those are some of the quotes that I’ve found from the internet and I think it has a very special meaning for me. Let me give some review about each quotes…

1. I agreed that friends are harder to find that lovers because love comes and goes. But REAL friend will always stays here with me.

2. Yes. Do ask ok. Because if you are allowed, I would like to join you, so that you are not alone. =)

3. I always count on my friends and you were always there for me to help to go through the hard moments. Thanx dearest.

4. Believe me. You guys changed me. You taught me to be a better person and best thing is I’ve learn a lot of new things in life from all of you.

5. I believe that my you will hold my head. Am I right? Because you guys have never let me go through hard times alone.

6. Yes, we did. All those crazy things are the coolest thing can happen to me in my whole entire life.

7. Im sorry if you get annoyed but I always turn to you during my good and hard times. =P

8. You were always there for me. Everything that is in this quote is true. You were always there to help me. Even when I fall, you were there to help me up.

Thanx to my best friends for being a REAL and TRUE friends to me. You guys are the best thing that happen in my life because I know how hard to find friends that I can trust.

Ok, now let’s see who are the people that I can hold on to. Their name has been highlighted in the quotes:-

DERICK NABILAH

SHARINA DANIELLA

I’ve been thru good and hard times in my life for these past few years. You guys are always there for me to help me up whenever I fall. During this past few years, I’ve learn that it is very very hard to find people that you can really call a FRIEND. You were always there to give advices to me. I wonder if you guys have ever feel annoyed by giving me the same advice especially when it comes to LOVE. At this moment, I wonder why I’ve never learnt from my mistakes. Why do I keep on repeating the same mistakes? Thanx dearest for always being there for me.

I LOVE YOU! <3

XOXO

live ur life!

hey! its a new blog. im starting a new life, so i guess i need a new blog.. well, it doesnt mean that i hate my previous life. its just that i want a fresh air and new environment around me.. welcome to those that were invited to my blog.. haha first of all, im having my finals in couple of days.. n yet, i still stuck in front of my laptop which im not supposed to.. cz i have 18 chapters to cover.. 

well, its my nature because i love to do things last minute and love to say "kejap la.. ada time lg.. esok still sempat".. hahaha that sentence always kills me when the deadline is around the corner.. hahaha for example the last two weeks, i am supposed to start doing my economy ass but it was only friday.. so i postpone it to saturday, sunday and obviously i need to go back to melaka on sunday.. on that moment, i was like "SHIT!" i havent touch a thing.. so, there i am struggling with my ass for four days which i need to cover 10 chpters of past year paper.. haha n at the same time, i have 3 test and 1 quiz to cover.. hahaha hectic?? tell me bout it.. somehow, i still manage to do well in everything.. of course i did some cheating during the one of the test which is advertising cz i dont have time to study.. as for the economy test and quiz, i think it was quite easy cz i did study some of it while doing the ass.. hahaha n for my final test publication, i know i could have done better, but at least, i still manage to answer the ques WITHOUT cheating.. hahaha

well, thats my nature, and i guess that makes me unique and different from other people.. and at least i dont disturb anyone.. hahaha well i have a new principle.. do whatever i want as long as i dont hurt anyone.. and if i dont like anyone, i will not do anything but ill stay professional if i have to do any work or assignments with those people.. haha